Back to Life, Back to Reality

Aloha! After 7 days and nights there, 10 hours on the plane there and back, 12 episodes of the 1st season of 24 viewed on the video ipod, countless tropical drinks by the pool and great wine with dinner, I am back from Hawaii.

And now, reality hits. I am now less than 48 hours away from my follow-up with our new RE to go over all of our test results. I am excited in an odd way about the results. I almost want there to be something there so I can no what's going on. Although I want it to be something "small", not big. Something that is easily fixable. Like some easy switch needs to be flipped on and suddenly all will be perfect in my fertility existence. Odds of this being the case - slim to none. But it is my hope.

Now, if tests come up with absolutely nothing I have no idea where to go from there. I don't look forward to another pregnancy without answers that will end with another loss. I just can't go there. At least not in my mind yet. So for now I wait just a short while to know a little more and hopefully have a game plan to share.

Another addition to my daily routine beginning tomorrow is my friend the thermometer. I haven't temped since before my last pregnancy - so I've had a nice 6 month break. I must say it's been nice not having to overanalyze the spikes and dips and do the timed BD. But alas, it is time. And I'm as ready as I'll ever be to start all the trying again. So here we go...