Monday, September 10, 2007

Back to Life, Back to Reality

Aloha! After 7 days and nights there, 10 hours on the plane there and back, 12 episodes of the 1st season of 24 viewed on the video ipod, countless tropical drinks by the pool and great wine with dinner, I am back from Hawaii.

And now, reality hits. I am now less than 48 hours away from my follow-up with our new RE to go over all of our test results. I am excited in an odd way about the results. I almost want there to be something there so I can no what's going on. Although I want it to be something "small", not big. Something that is easily fixable. Like some easy switch needs to be flipped on and suddenly all will be perfect in my fertility existence. Odds of this being the case - slim to none. But it is my hope.

Now, if tests come up with absolutely nothing I have no idea where to go from there. I don't look forward to another pregnancy without answers that will end with another loss. I just can't go there. At least not in my mind yet. So for now I wait just a short while to know a little more and hopefully have a game plan to share.

Another addition to my daily routine beginning tomorrow is my friend the thermometer. I haven't temped since before my last pregnancy - so I've had a nice 6 month break. I must say it's been nice not having to overanalyze the spikes and dips and do the timed BD. But alas, it is time. And I'm as ready as I'll ever be to start all the trying again. So here we go...

5 comments:

Annie said...

Good luck with your test results! Later this month I will be going through a battery of them myself with our new RE, and I too feel weirdly excited. Some ANSWERS would be nice, right?

p.s. - You have one of the best blog titles ever!

Sunny said...

Man my minds eye was right. You have been on my mind all day. I will start praying even harder. I was also thinking about you temping during my ride home today. SUCK!

If you need me you know where to find me. LOVE YOU!

Katie said...

Welcome back!

I hope with all of my heart and soul that you will get not only answers, but fixable answers.

tracey said...

Hmmm...much to pray about. Parying for Bubba too.

lori said...

i completely know what you mean about being excited just to finally know what's going on and what the next step is.

wishing you "good" answers,
-lori