Monday, December 20, 2010

Christmas is Almost Here!

Yes, I know I've been a very very bad blogger of late. Getting started on my New Year's resolution a little bit early, and am planning on being more active around here. There is so much to catch you up on, Gall Bladder surgery, Sawyer's growing up, being re-hospitalized after surgery, etc., etc., - but I will save that for later. For now, Merry Christmas from my beautiful boys!

The Santa Pic. Yes I am that mom that tortures her 2 year old and puts him on Santa's lap then runs.

My beautiful baby boy with a smile that will melt your heart. Can't believe he's 5 months already!

My big boy in his "Shanta Kwaus" hat.

Christmas card shot #1. Please excuse the snot dripping from G's nose...colds season is here.

Christmas Card shot #2. I love my sweet boys!

Friday, October 15, 2010

Today I remember

Oct 15 2006. Worst day of my life to date.
Due date of baby #1 - Loss date of baby #2.

Time heals, and so do my boys Grayson and Sawyer. But nothing will ever make me forget. And I can't imagine an Oct 15 rolling around without remembrance and tears.

Also, today another blogger I read lost a baby at 18 weeks - please give her some love over here:

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Travel Week Highs and Lows

We spent a week on the road and in the air....traveling first by plane to Michigan for a cousin's wedding and then by car to Ocean City, MD. Sunday of Labor Day weekend was quite the day as we woke up in Detroit, flew to Virginia and drove to the beach - with an ER stop for Grayson - he had a bad cough that they diagnosed as pertussis. Which ended up being a misdiagnosis. On Wednesday we were back at the ER because he was getting worse and had a 103 fever. Chest xrays revealed a mild case of pneumonia. An antibiotic shot and prescription in hand, we were sent on our way. Thankfully he started to immediately improve and was even able to enjoy the sand at the beach on our last day.

Here are the highs...and lows of the trip....

doing his "funny face"

whatchyou lookin at mommy?
even the dog enjoyed sunbathing on the deck

the entire town was sold out of plastic or inflatable pools - so we improvised with an underbed storage container - and he didn't know the difference!

At the ER...passed out and sweetly pathetic

so sick he couldn't even bring himself to eat his donut

failed attempt at matching pj's pic....grayson wouldn't stay still


cutest lil footprints ever

playing in the sand

Chasing the birds


Lining up his shot

He really didn't want to leave putt putt

enjoying the sunset on our last night

Goodbye ocean city! Hope to see you again soon!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

I'm sure this will backfire on me, but....

I know that me speaking of this will backfire on me, but I just have to say I'm so proud of my little fella. He slept 10 hours straight last night! 1-0. Wow! He went down at 7:30 and didn't wake up til 5:30. Momma went down at 9:30 and slept til 5:30 (8 hours of sleep? unheard of for me!). It was a dream.

When he went back down at 6 I was actually rested enough to stay up and get some stuff down around the house before Grayson woke up. Heavenly is the only word to describe it.

And now that I've spoken of it, I'm prepared for a night of every hour on the hour feedings tonight. ;-)

Monday, August 30, 2010

Post Pregnancy Weight Loss Tip

Anyone out there looking for the secret to weight loss after baby? The answer is apparently gall stones. :-)

Over the past couple weeks between the stomach problems and the new diet I have to live by in order to stay pain free, the pounds are falling off. I've gotta say I can't complain. The pain I had was horrendous....but the vanity in me thinks it was almost (but not quite) worth it for what I'm seeing on the scale.

Pounds put on with pregnancy: 50. Pounds currently down: 35. Fifteen to go is still quite a bit....but I wasn't down this far after Grayson til he was almost a year old. It was a looooong journey of weight loss for me last time. So this is a nice change...albeit for a crappy ( pun intended) reason.

I met with the surgeon on Friday and the gall bladder is definitely coming out. Probably around the 15th or so of the month (exact date tbd later this week). So for 2 1/2 more weeks I am living on the most boring, bland, lowfat diet ever. I really am starving and going crazy. But the results on the scale help keep me sane. And the great thing is, since I changed the way I eat last weekend I haven't had any pain. Phew. I don't think I could live with that another day even.

So for now, I'm cranky and hungry....but slightly smaller. Which is almost kinda sorta worth it.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Can't Stop the Clock

My time is up. Six weeks has flown by in the time it takes to snap your fingers. Today I go back to work. It's absolutely amazing to me how I have absolutely zilch desire to do so. You see I LOVE my job and LOVE where I work and LOVE who I work with. But having # 2 has totally changed me. I'm now content to gasp....stay at home. Even after Grayson I was ready to get back into a routine. But now, not so much.

Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for my job. And even more grateful for the child care situation there. (Both kids are down the hall being watched by a friend with other staff kiddos. I can visit whenever I want. I can breastfeed Sawyer at every feeding. I get to have lunch with each of them each day.'s a dream). So I don't really want to complain. Just want to lament at how time flies and I'd love to stop it. Sawyer is already growing so much and changing before my eyes. Grayson gets to be more of a little person every day with new mannerisms and phrases and fun. Someone make it stop!

As I type this morning #1 is going well. Sawyer woke up to eat at about 6:45, then went back down and is still asleep. I then showered and ate breakfast...then G woke up. He's now finishing up his breakfast while watching Mouse and is dressed and ready to go. (I got my hair done while he's eating) I'm almost ready to go...just have to do the make up and clothes thing. Lunch was packed last night so all that is left is getting everything and everyone in the car and going.

Deep breath. I can do this.

Monday, August 23, 2010

The Post Partum From Hell

I've gotta say. This time the post partum 6 weeks have been quite a doozie. Sawyer's delivery was a breeze and he's a pretty good baby. But he sure has put my poor body through the loop.

First came all the back problems. I was down and out for 1 week, and then spent 2 days a week in physical therapy for 4 weeks. Not fun. Although, I'm happy to report all is just perfect with my back now.

Next came my body not quite healing as it should from the delivery. I was back at the OB at week 3 and week 4 with healing issues. I eventually ended up on an antibiotic to combat an infection that was beginning. So issue number 2 solved.

And now...issue # 3. Which takes the cake so far. I've had crazy intestinal issues for a week. I've also had awful pain in my chest that feels like heartburn on crack every 2 to 3 days. I'm left crying and writhing in pain for about 15 minutes each time until it relieves itself with the most heinous burps I've ever heard. It seriously is just as bad as the mid stages of labor I've experienced prior to epidural.

So, yesterday morning was spent in the ER, getting tests and various bloodwork to figure out what the heck is up with me. An ultrasound revealed the culprit. Gall stones and sludge. I now am referred to a general surgeon to talk about having my gall bladder removed sometime soon. That appointment is on Friday.

Now from what I read and hear, this surgery is supposed to be a breeze. It's done laproscopically and I probably will even get to go home the same day. But still, it is surgery to have an organ removed. I've never had any surgeries other than the d&c's for 2 of my miscarriages. And I'm sure I won't be able to breastfeed for a bit due to the anesthetic in my system and such. So, this should be interesting...and not fun.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

All Things Are Not Created Equal

Um. I have a problem. Over the past 2 weeks it has been getting bigger....and smaller at the same time. You see I have an um...a lopsided situation.

Boobie A is a good deal bigger than boobie B. This means for some odd reason I'm producing differently on each side. I've tried doing some of the tricks I've read online....having S start each feeding on the smaller side to stimulate it more and I'm pumping on that side after most feedings (when I'm near my pump and not on the go). So far it doesn't seem to be helping. And I know most other people can't notice it but I feel like it's glaringly obvious. Which is embarassing.

I'm not sure what the culprit is for this. With G, everything remained nice and even. And S doesn't prefer one side to another. He spends the same amount of time on both for the most part. Although it is a vicious cycle. Now that side B is smaller, it creates less milk, therefore he spends less time on it. Not sure how to correct that at this point.

So ladies...any other advice out there for my girlies? I used fenugreek with G for just basic milk production, so I'm tempted to try that out again. But I remember smelling and sweating maple syrup when I was on that, which wasn't so pleasant.

Has anyone out there ever had to use an actual drug to stimulate things (like Ra.glan)? Or are those types of things only prescribed when production is an issue on both sides?


Wednesday, August 11, 2010

All About Sawyer

Hard to believe my little dude is 1 month old. Let me tell you a little more about my mini man and what I know about him after a wonderful month.

He LOVES to eat and is a little chunkster. He is 1 month old and already growing out of 0-3 month clothes. He only stayed in newborn diapers for about 10 days then moved on to 1's. And I haven't bought a ton of those, because I think 2's are on the horizon in the next few weeks. At his 1 month appt he is in the 75th percentile for weight.

He's not a bad sleeper. We've settled into a routine of him going down somewhere between 7 and 8 p.m. for the night. He then wakes up normally around 1...then again around 4:30 or 5. The other night he went 8 hours though from 7:45 to 3:45. Which was awesome. It would be great if that repeated itself...but I'm not holding my breath.

He's a well behaved little man. His general demeanor is pleasant. He's pretty happy just relaxing in the bouncy seat. Unless that is he's having stomach issues/gas, in which case, he's not happy unless he's being held.

He goes back and forth between bottle and boob just fine. This makes for one happy mama. I've been able to go out on a few dates and have the sitter do his last bottle for the evening. He takes it like a champ, and comes right back to the boob for the next feeding without any problems. He's also had 2 nights with dad as mom has had some girl time with her sisters/mom and with the MIL.

He has a serious case of baby acne. I won't lie. It bothers me. I wish he had a nice smooth complexion...but I'll get over my vanity on this one.

He's quite the sucker. He likes his fists, my fingers and his pacifier. We've already graduated from the green ones they give at the hospital to the Nuk. Thankfully I saved a whole bunch from Grayson and didn't need to purchase any new ones.

He actually likes taking a bath. This one is funny to me because Grayson absolutely hated it and screamed through it each time. Sawyer loves it and gets all calm and quiet. It's kind of sweet.

Here are some shots from his 1 month photo shoot at Pic.ture People. Enjoy!

Sunday, August 8, 2010

What Goes Up Must Come Down

Boy do I have a little piggie on my hands in Sawyer. He eats. He eats a lot. One nice benefit of this, is that the pregnancy poundage seems to be shedding a little quicker this time.

With Grayson the weight loss was a slooooooooow road. I think for a combination of factors. 1 - He didn't eat as much...just was a smaller dude. 2 - I think milk supply never got off to a great start since I had to establish it with pumping while he was in the NICU. 3- It was hard to get into the eating right/working out and getting down to pre-pregnancy weight mind set when I knew I just wanted to be pregnant again, and soon. Why work so hard when the ultimate goal was to put it right back on?

So this time it's different. Different baby, different milk production, different mentality towards losing it. Sawyer is 4 weeks old tonight and I am down 27 of the 50 lbs I gained. Now, this is still a long long way from where I need to be. But when Grayson was 8 weeks old, I was only down 25 lbs of that same 50. So I consider this huge progress for me. Right now I'm still going down 2 lbs or more a week, and hope that sticks for a while. Plus, soon I'll get the all clear to work out again which will be nice.

And on the workout front, I've just registered myself for the Disney World half marathon in January. I'm going to be running it with my college roommate while will be great. Now, I'm not really a natural runner. I ran all through high school and college, but never enjoyed doing it, just enjoyed the end results. And I've never done a race that long. And I am crazy out of shape. But, I think this will be a great way for me to lose the rest of the pounds and I love having a goal in mind. I'll start training in September. Should be fun and awful all at the same time.

But for now...I'm grateful for my 27 and look forward to getting the rest of this off and being in my clothes again.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

So what do you think? Do they look alike?

Sawyer.....3 weeks old. Hanging at the pool

Grayson.....3 weeks old...hanging at the pool.

Same outfit....different poses. they look alike?

Baby Dedication

This past Sunday we dedicated Sawyer at our church. Our church background doesn't do christenings. We do baptisms at an older age after a person comes into a personal relationship with Christ. What we do is have a dedication time, that is really more about the parents than the baby. I guess it's more of "Parent" Dedication then a "Baby" dedication. It's a time for us to stand before the church and God and commit to raise up our baby boy to our best and in keeping with our faith. It's a really sweet time and I of course cried. After the service, we hung with the in-laws and we were able to get some good pics. Hard to believe my little guy is over 3 weeks old already. Where does the time go?

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Sawyer's Birth Story

The weekend of Sawyer's arrival, my BFF came into town for a quick visit. She was 26 weeks pregnant and we really wanted to see each other before Sawyer came so that we could get a belly pic together. She came into town Saturday and left Sunday evening. Meanwhile on Sunday morning I passed my plug and had a little bit of blood as well as contractions. I knew Sawyer was close...just didn't know how close. To the left is my last belly pic, taken 1 day before I went into labor.

We dropped my friend off at the train station at 7:30 p.m. and headed home. I sang to Grayson and tucked him in, cherishing what I figured was either the last night, or close to the last night, that it would be just us.

At 9, we headed to bed to watch True Blood before we went to sleep (we are early retirers at night, don't judge). As i headed up the stairs I felt some leakage. It wasn't much, but enough to change my underwear. As I climbed in bed I told David not to get too comfortable, that time would tell if it was my water starting to leak or not. It happened 2 more times in the next half hour and some mild contractions began. So, I texted the sitter arranged for Grayson and called the doc. She said to come on in to the hospital, so I got out of bed, tried to do something with my hair and makeup and made sure everything was in the hospital bag. Before we left we both went in to peek in at G sleeping and appreciate that last moment of just us 3. Amazingly enough I didn't cry...I was more excited than sad at that point.

By 10:15 sitter had arrived and we headed to the hospital. Unfortunately we hit a good bit of traffic on the way. (Brake lights pictured on right....not a sight a contracting girl wants to see) So it took us about 15 extra minutes to get there - and my contractions were starting to hurt by that point. So that was really annoying.

We were at the hospital before 10:45 - I got all checked in, and went to triage for them to check my water bag. I was 5cm when we got to triage and my water still hadn't ruptured, was just leaking. I encouraged them to hurry up and start my IV so I could get my epidural sooner rather than later. Contractions were coming close and were really hurting. They started my IV and sent me to my Labor and Delivery room. On the way, we saw my family in the hall (my younger sister, Mom, Grandma and Dad).

The next hour or so I just spent making it through each contraction as they got worse and worse waiting for the epidural. The anesthesiologist was in an emergency c-section so I had to wait. Finally he came in, and I breathed a sigh of relief that the pain was about to be over. I'd gone way past the pain level I was at with G's labor before getting the epidural and was ready to be done. Unfortunately he had a booger of a time finding the right spot to put it in. He dug around my spine through 2 contractions before saying he'd have to switch to another vertebrae because the space was too tight. It. Was. Awful. Numbed or not....someone digging around your spine is painful. Finally he got it in and relief came.

At that point they checked me and I was at 7cm. They broke my water the rest of the way and guesstimated that I'd be ready to go in about an hour. At this point the family came back in and we had a fun little party for a bit while we waited. My in-law's arrived by this point too.

Sure enough, an hour later my cervix was gone and I was ready to push. Everyone left the room at this point except David, my mom, my grandma and my sister.

I only had to push through 5 or 6 contractions over 20 minutes. This is a HUGE improvement over last time. Towards the end, Sawyer's heart rate was dropping just a bit (to about 96), so they wanted to get him out. The doc used the vacuum for 2 pushes at the end to help out a little.

At 2:56 we finally met Sawyer. My first thought was that he looked just like Grayson, minus the forceps horns. They let me hold him right away which was amazing. Somehow I didn't cry - I just smiled and laughed and was so happy to meet him. They took him away to clean him up and do his weight (8lbs 13 oz - a whole lb bigger than G) and 20.5 inches long (a half inch bigger than G). Once all the formalities were done, he came back to my arms all wrapped up in his cute little hate and blanket. We cuddled a bit, then passed him around to Daddy and the other visitors. It was so nice to have that experience. I have all the happy pics of this moment that I didn't get to have last time.

After the family had all met Sawyer and gotten their photo op, they all said their goodbyes and left us alone. I put Sawyer to my boob to see what would happen and he began eating like a champ. No latch issues or anything. The boy was a natural eater! (Not surprising since I am too!).

At 5:30 a.m. we were finally in the post-partum room and it was time for some rest. I was soooo exhausted. David went home to relieve the sitter, and was coming back with G when visiting hours began around lunchtime.

So from start to finish the whole labor only lasted less than 6 hours from the uncertain start to the finish. Not bad.

And we have a beautiful healthy baby boy. I am one extremely thankful mama for an experience with Sawyer that was smooth and exactly as it should be - from 2 pink lines to "it's a boy!".

Alive & Well

Sorry for my silence. Things have been busy....but good. Quick updates for now, more to come later...

Finally posted the Birth Story, so check that out

My back is doing MUCH better. That unfortunately sucked a week away of my life where I had to have constant help to take care of my boys. But thanks to physical therapy I'm doing way better. Still hitting PT 2 times a week to keep things stable, but I am pain free. I just get a little tight now and then, which I can deal with.

Sawyer is a little piggy! At his 2 week appt. he weighed in at just shy of 10 lbs putting him in the 99th percentile for weight. Quite the change from Grayson - who normally was in the 3rd percentile (as in 3%).

Weight Update - I'm 24 lbs down - pretty much halfway there as I gained 50 lbs yet again. It does seem to be coming off a bit faster this time. I attribute that to Sawyer and the amount he eats - which is quite a bit! Still have a looooooong way to go though to be back in any of my clothes.

Adjusting to Two. I think I've settled into life with my 2 boys quite well. For the most part it doesn't overwhelm me and I'm able to do all that I need to on my own. We've ventured out without trouble and had lovely days at home. It definitely has it's challenging moments but it's not as bad as I thought it would be.

Date Night - Yes! They are back. Last friday we left both boys with a sitter so that we could go out and celebrate my husband's bday. Sawyer did great, eating a bottle and going to bed as he should. The night was a success so we are doing it again this Friday! I LOVE my regular sitter, and HATE that I'm losing her to college again in a few weeks. So...we are taking advantage of having a trusted person watching S while we can.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Back Update

So the sports medicine doc didn't think it was joints...he thinks it's a muscle issue. Which honestly I way prefer. The joint thing seemed kind of unfixable. Muscle issues just need a little time and tlc to work out. So I am now on muscle relaxers round the clock (totally safe while breastfeeding) and I start some physical therapy this afternoon. The muscle relaxers don't seem to be doing much but making me really sleepy. Really hoping the physical therapy helps and they are able to show me some stretches and stuff that will help work this out.

Keep me in your prayers peeps. This is getting really old and my post partum emotions can't take this much longer.

Breastfeeding Must Have #4

This is something I wish I had known about when I was breastfeeding Grayson. It collects the milk you leak from the boob that isn't feeding the baby. This is especially handy for that first feeding of the day when leakage tends to be most.

I don't know about you, but I work HARD to store up a supply of breastmilk in the freezer for the times I can't be with my baby. So this little invention is great because you don't have to waste a single, precious drop. I've been using it for the first morning feeding when I'm particularly engorged. Right now I'm collecting about a 1/2 ounce per use. And I imagine this will only keep going up and envision that as S gets older and eats more, I'll be collecting a couple of ounces each time I use it. This is my new fav by far.

It's called the Milk Saver by Milkies. You can read more about it here and can buy it here or here.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Deal Alert on Hooter Hiders!

In a previous post I raved about Hooter Hiders. Here's a great deal on one! Udder Covers has their 6 nursing covers on sale for $9.95 shipped! Just use the code cute at checkout and all you pay is shipping!

I personally like this one best....cause I think the dark is more discreet. I already own this one and am gonna pick up an extra one at this price for a preggo friend.

The Good & The Bad

Very soon I will finish my post with my birth story - which was GREAT by the way and a huge improvement on my last experience. And I will update you on my wonderful baby boy is is soooo GOOD in every way - eating, sleeping, being content. Seriously he is a dream. (This is again nice change of pace from Grayson - who had NICU time, reflux and crazy fussiness round the clock)'s the bad. Since Tuesday, I have been in crazy pain in my lower back. It came on all of the sudden and has pretty much kept me fairly immobile. Something I don't really have the luxury to be with a newborn and a 2 year old. When it first came on I literally couldn't move and had to tell Grayson to "go get mommy's phone, it's by her bed". Thankfully he understood and did and my mom was over within minutes. I went to the doctor on Tuesday, thinking maybe it was a kidney infection. Something not uncommon after having a catheter in...which i did have as part of labor with an epidural.

They did a urinalysis which came up negative. The doc said it was joint pain. The joint that connects the back and the hip does all kinds of funky things in pregnancy in order to loosen up the pelvic area for birth. It's called the sacroiliac joint - and mine is inflamed. Oh joy joy. I'm supposed to take Advil and just wait it out til it goes away. Unfortunately it isn't. So I have a follow up appt. today with the sports medicine/physical therapy people to see about some further treatment.

From what I read, treatment is either physical therapy or shots (cortisone I believe). From what I read you can have cortisone shots while breastfeeding, but I'm not totally sure. So if not, I'm gonna have to choose between crazy pain, and breastfeeding my baby. I can always pump and dump for a while and then hope he comes back to my boob, but my supply doesn't keep up well solely on the pump. So that would be quite frustrating. But, if shots are the answer, I will have to do it. Because right now I can't take care of my kids on my own. My wonderfully awesome mother has been with me all days since this happened, and my husband in the evenings. Without them I would be unable to do things for my kiddos. This is oh so frustrating and has brought me to tears many times over past few days. So i need a solution. Hoping to find one this afternoon.

Anyone ever hear of this? Any ideas?

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Monday, July 12, 2010

Sawyer is Here

We welcomed an 8lb 13 oz 20.5 inches beautiful baby boy early this morning at 2:56 a.m. Birth went smoothly and we are both doing well. Pics to come when we get home and have a computer.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Breastfeeding Must Have # 3

The Hooter Hider!

I must admit, I do get annoyed at the people who get totally grossed out by breastfeeding and think that it should never ever be done in public. There are those who say if we want to feed our babies we should do it in the bathroom in private. Um, I'm sorry, do you want to eat your food in the bathroom?! I think not. I also though, don't think we need to subject everyone to flashes of our boobies. The hooter hider is a great solution to this very problem. It covers everything without smothering your baby. And the wiring on the top offers mommy a view of baby, without us showing the goods to everyone else.

There are some really fun patterns out there as well for these, but my suggestion would be to go with a solid color that is nice and discreet. I have a solid black one and I can't tell you how many times I was at a restaurant or somewhere else feeding G and people didn't even realized what I was doing under there. So, if you want to stay stealth, go dark and solid.

You can find a bunch of options using the link above, or there are a bunch on Etsy as well. I have gifted these numerous times as well to expectant moms. They make a great gift.

Friday, July 9, 2010

Breastfeeding Must Haves # 1 & 2

Any new mommies out there who need some help in the area of breastfeeding? I'm a huge advocate for it. Yes, it can be very tough and challenging in the beginning as you deal with latch issues, crazy sore nipples and worries about if your baby is eating enough. But, if you can push through the first weeks - it gets super easy! I promise. I'm starting a new series of posts of some of my "must haves" for navigating breastfeeding.

The first two, are extremely helpful during the first days and weeks as your nipples are getting "broken in" so to speak.

The first is Lan.sinoh Ultra Soft Nursing Pads. Now....any nursing pads will do once your healed and not hurting any more. But, these ones are great for the beginning because they don't chafe and are super soft. Buy a box or 2 prior to going into the hospital so you're prepared when it is time.

The second must have for the beginning is Lans.inoh Topical Breast Cream. This is great for soothing the soreness. Apply it liberally and often...and don't worry, it's safe for baby too. You don't have to wipe off before feeding. Keep it in your hospital or diaper bag so that you're ready to go when you need it.

I have more must haves to come over the coming days...stay tuned!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Pregnancy Must Haves - #5 & 6 - for all your smart phone gals

In prep for my impending (hopefully) labor, I downloaded a FREE app to track contractions. Kind of makes the pain a little more fun. :-)

There are a ton of other really cool apps out there for pregnancy and labor, but I was cheap and went for free. You can find out more about this app here.

Another app that is fun for pregnancy in general is the What to Expect even has a place to take a weekly photo of your belly. Something I of course always forgot to do. But if you are just starting out in pregnancy and have a smart phone, it is a great app for info and tracking.

Any more great pregnancy apps out there that are worth sharing? Leave a comment!