Thursday, November 13, 2008
Christmas is just a little over a month away and I'm excited to watch all my fav Christmas movies. Along with the standards like "Christmas Story", "National Lampoons Christmas Vacation", "Charlie Brown Christmas" and more, I have a set of what I like to call new Christmas Classics that have become part of my holiday routine. The list consists of:
The Family Stone
Some make me laugh, some make me cry, but that all get me in the Christmas spirit.
What movies mean Christmas for you?
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Grayson had his 4 month check up today. He'll be 5 months on Friday, so I'm a little late, but right at 4 months we were doing all his eye stuff so I'm a little behind. He is doing great and is healthy, but when I call him my little man, he is just that. He's in the 10th percentile on weight, and the 3rd percentile on height, and his head is in the 50th percentile. So basically I have a short, skinny kid with a big ole noggin. Ha!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
I also remember that, although the road that brought me here sucked hard core, I am so blessed because of my little man Gray.
I remember all the little ones that those close to me have lost, and shed some tears for them today as well.
I remember also to be thankful for a great friend who remembers with me, who feels my pain again with me each time this date rolls around, and never forgets.
And I could never forget to remember to be thankful for my fabulous mom who remembers without me having to remind...and shows up at work today with flowers, a blueberry cake donut and some dunkin donuts coffee. Seriously...you may think your mom rocks. But mine kicks her tail in every way. :-)
I will never forget to remember.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
This is now the longest stretch of me being away from him. Up to this point I've only left him for 4-5 hours tops. This one will be 14 hours or so. I have to say it feels weird. I couldn't sleep well last night, because I kept thinking he was still in next room and I should check on him....but then remembered he's not here. Don't get me wrong...the break is fabulous. But just weird. It's almost like I don't remember life without him. Amazing how quickly that happens.
Off now to get ready and go pick up my little man. I sure do miss that sweet smile of his!
Oh...and a side note, if you are ever heading into DC....Grumps is the man to drive you! We made it from the Verizon Center to my door in 20 minutes flat! He is the man!
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
When it was time to go back to the MRI, the hospital staff was so great. They calmed all our fears, answered all our questions and reassured us that there was a much higher chance of something bad happening to the little guy while on the car ride home (getting in an accident) than having a reaction to the anesthesia.
What did suck though was having to hold him down as they gave him the gas to make him fall asleep. That suuuuuuuuccccccked hard core. Thankfully it only took him about 20 seconds to chill out and about 40 to fall asleep. So we kissed the little man goodbye and left for what they told us would be an hour to an hour and a half. Big fat tears rolled down my face as we walked out.
Time ticked by slowly, and we went to the cafe for a little bit to kill some time. While we were sitting there I saw one of the MRI technicians walking towards us. I swear I saw it all in slow motion as he approached our table. I was so sure he was going to tell us something horrible had happened. Instead he just smiled and said "he's doing great", then went to grab himself some lunch.
The MRI ended up taking 2 hours which of course seemed longer. Once he was done, they let us go back to recovery as he was coming out from being under. This is where the wrath of Grayson kicked in. He sure was pissed. He was screaming, starving and inconsolable. After a few minutes, they let me feed him, but only a little bit because they wanted to make sure his stomach could handle it. You should have seen him flip out when I pulled him off of me. Not happy until they let me finish feeding him a few minutes later. After that he was all snuggly and cuddly and back to his normal happy self. Phew.
Yesterday we got the call from the doc that the results came back just fine. Another huge sigh of relief. We go back to see her in 3 months for another check-up, but that's just routine. He is going to be just fine. His eyelid will be a bit droopy, his pupil a bit small, and possibly the right side of his face won't sweat. And, his right eye will stay blue as can be while his left one continues to darken.
I did always want at least one kid to have my eye color. I guess I should've been more specific and asked for it to be plural. :-) So far the collective opinion seems to be that his eyes will score big with the ladies in his future...and I totally agree.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
We are of course believing that it is "a", but we have to rule out the possibility of it being something more serious. So on Friday he has an MRI at 11 a.m. at the hospital where he was born. He has to go under anesthesia for it, since there is no way he will stay still enough without it. He also isn't allowed to eat for 6 hours before the procedure, so that's gonna be a fun morning. I really hate that he's going to be so upset and cranky and I won't be able to do a darn thing to fix it. I can just see his little eyes looking up at me saying "why aren't you feeding me mommy?".
Please pray for him and the test results (which we will find out by next Tuesday hopefully). Also pray for me and the husband as we are quite apprehensive and worried about Friday and having to put the little guy under.
I was thinking I wasn't too stressed about this, until yesterday I realized both my normal stress indicators were out in full force. The first thing I do when I'm stressed is grind my teeth together when I sleep. I know I do this because my jaw is super sore afterwards. So last night I wore my oh so sexy bite plate to try and prevent that a little bit.
The second sign of stressing is that I have this weird thing where I get really lightheaded and dizzy. I was having issues with this in the summer of 2007 after miscarriage #3 and was even on anti-anxiety meds for a bit. (Which by the way didn't help - they mellowed me out so much I got depressed....not really a better solution there). The last few days the light floaty feeling in my head has reappeared, and it is so not welcome. I just need to keep telling myself that it is in my control if I can just chill out a bit.
So I'm taking deep breaths and trusting that Grayson is in God's hands and everything is under control. I will be sure to update you all after tomorrow's testing.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
This morning I took him in to the pediatrician who checked things out, and then referred me to the pediatric opthamologist. I wasn't really freaked out by this at all yet, until they told me they wanted to get me in today. Not cool. Something must be really wrong if he has to be seen today. Luckily I only had to wait like 90 minutes to get in with the specialist. The Husband joined me at the 2nd appt since I was freaked.
The opt. doc did a bunch of shining lights in his eyes, then dilated them with some drops to get a better lock. She thinks he has Horner's Syndrome - which is characterized by a droopy eyelid (which he's had since birth), a lighter eye color in one eye (which seems to be occuring) and is sometimes caused by a neck trauma (which he had due to forceps during birth).
The good news is, there are no other medical side effects of this syndrome. His vision won't be affected, etc., It's purely a physical appearance thing, and as he gets older, the pupil difference won't be noticeable (only like a 1 mm difference between them) and his eyelid droopiness should become less apparent. It's not even noticeable all the time now. The bad news is, they need to rule out other causes of all this eye stuff. So the poor little guy has an MRI scheduled for next Friday. The thing I'm stressed about is that he has to go under sedation for the test....he's just too little to stay still for it otherwise. I'm quite worried about how his little body will react to anesthesia but am comforted that it will take place in the same hospital where he was born where they have a great children's center. He will be in good hands at least.
They will be looking for lesions or tumors on his sympathetic nervous system. Yikes! I don't like the sound of that at all. I told my husband that I'm not too worried about it being something like that, since it's seems such a textbook case of Horner's Syndrome. He replied with "yeah, but when has anything with us worked out in the classic textbook way.". Um...thanks honey for the vote of reassurance. But...he is right I guess. Still...I'm believing in the best. Mostly cause I just can't fathom the process of having to go through something so rough with the little guy.
We have a follow up appt with the opt doc on Wednesday where she'll put cocaine drops in his eyes. Yep...you read that right - cocaine. One friend of mine thinks it's pretty cool that Grayson will be able to tell his friends that his mom let him do cocaine before his 1st birthday. Ha! Another friend thinks him having 2 different eye colors will make him pretty cool with the ladies in his future. I agree. I kinda like that side effect. It will definitely make him stand out.
I guess after this appt there is a small chance we won't have to do the MRI which would be great. But I'm prepping myself emotionally for the MRI next week regardless...just in case.
Keep the little guy in your prayers and I will keep you updated.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
I am still here. I am still reading your blogs. But with heading back to work at the beginning of August and how busy the G-man keeps me, I just haven't blogged. I think about it...but then I have no follow through. I will try to be better.
Believe it or not Grayson is already 3 months. Time flies doesn't it?
I wanted to get his 3 month old pictures taken, so being the anal woman I am, I took him on the day he turned 3 months. I did the same with his 1 month pictures...I'm sure I will do the same when it gets to 6 months. And thankfully I just got a brand new printer/scanner so I can share a few of the shots with you.
He sure is a cute little thing and he's all smiles these days which has been so much fun. Enjoy the shots of our little football fan.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
I am currently working on my "birh story" post. But that's a long one so it's taking some time. I hope to have it up for your viewing pleasure soon.
Here are some other highlights from the last 8 weeks. (Yes it has been 8 weeks which is CRAZY!)
- Fussy baby. Yep...that's what I have. His reflux sure makes him collicy (is that a word?). It sure stretches my patience but I keep telling myself something a good friend told me to keep in mind. That "this too shall pass".
- Sleep. On this I can't make too much complaint. He is so close to sleeping through night. He typically does a 7 hour stretch from like 9 to 4. He's even gone as long as 8 1/2 before. I LOVE him so much when he does this.
- Car seat. He thankfully has been in a real car seat since about 4 weeks. Our lives became so much easier on that day. Slings, swings, and strollers are such a lifesaver.
-Travel. He is already quite the jetsetter. We succesfully flew to Vermont...just he and I, which was a fun adventure. And....we are currently in Denver with his Dad. He does great on the plane which is nice...I'd hate to have everyone else on the flight hate me.
-6 weeks. My 6 week check up is behind me now and I was approved for all activities. I've been going to the gym a few days a week. It's been great to be proactive in shedding the poundage left to get back to PGW (pre-grayson-weight). I still have 25 pounds to go though....grrr. I also was approved for "relations". I was quite afraid of how this was going to feel because of my awful labor (more on that in my "birth story" post to come), but I was pleasantly surprised. And...we are sans birth control from this point on. Possibly a stupid move....but we just are gonna let whatever happens happen. I unfortunately know that a pregnancy does not always end happy, and I don't want to waste any time on baby # 2.
That's all for now...more to come as I have time....
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Here are some pics:
Having their 1st beer together
4 generations - husband & Grayson with his Dad and Gpa
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Grayson is HOME. He got to leave the NICU on Monday morning around 10 a.m. Since then we've been busy trying to get adjusted to life at home and get in a routine. He initially had fluid in his lungs and a chance of infection. The fluid cleared up after a few days on it's own. The infection disappeared...if there even was one in the first place. (They were concerned because I spiked a fever during delivery). Then his issue was his oxygen level. It kept dipping down too low. So...they ended up doing and upper g.i. test and figured out he has reflux. When the reflux comes up, his reaction is to hold his breath, causing the oxygen dips. They put him on zantac, observed him a few more days then finally sent him home with us. It was a long 9 nights that he was in there, and it is great to be done with all that and be home as a family.
He had to leave the hospital in a car bed - not a car seat - and has to avoid anything that puts his body in a "c" shape (swings, bouncy seats, slings, etc., - basically anything that would make my life easier at this point). He failed his car seat challenge in the NICU - where he has to sit in the car seat for 2 hours without his oxygen dipping. Within 5 minutes he dipped. So now he lays flat in the car til we have some follow ups with the pulmonolgist.
That's all I have time for at the moment...but wanted to give an update and some pics. More to come in next few days as I have time about labor and all the rest.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Keep this little guy in your prayers cause he is currently in the NICU because of issues with fluid in his lungs. It is quite frustrating to be sitting in my hospital room minus him. Not quite how I imagined things. But...he does seem to be improving and we've both gotten to hold him today which was wonderful.
It looks like he will be in here for a few more days than me, but I'll have more info on all this later as we get more updates from the doctor. And...I'll have some better pics too once we have the right cord for the camera.
I'll post more on my water breaking and labor later on, but wanted to let everyone know he's arrived for now and get you all to pray and cross your fingers for him. Thanks!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
First off - had my 38 week appt. today and I am now 3 centimeters dilated. Woohoo!
Then, after lunch I used the restroom and to my surprise had what I guess is called bloody show. I got so friggin excited about this grossness on my tp. I actually screamed "yeah!". But...no one was around to hear me. I then preceeded to skip down the hall and cheerily tell all my female co-workers my news to much excitement and glee on their part. How funny are we women as a species? My mom was especially excited. (yep - I work with my mom - and my dad actually - and my sister and her husband).
So I've done my reading up on this whole bloody business and have found that on average, most people go into labor within a few days of having this appearance. But...of course there are exceptions to every rule and it could mean a big fat nothing. And...as I polled my friends and family, I found mostly that they went into labor within 48 hours of this occuring. One even within 8 hours of it occuring. But then there was the one who ruined it all for me and she went 3 more weeks after seeing it and then had to be induced (But I love you anyway honey, even though your news was a downer). I have also had a lot more pressure going on down there, along with decent cramping now and then.
So my question to all of you is.....what do you think? 48 hours? Or possibly 3 weeks and an induction in my future? Oh how I would love for this baby to come in next few days - I so want that May birthdate and I'm running out of time.
So...please share your gross details with me so I can figure out what to expect here.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
So it's Sunday night and still no signs of impending labor. I'm guessing I'm not gonna get my weekend wish. But that's ok. I'm trying to appreciate the rest of the time I have with him inside me. I'm sure I'll miss his wigglings once he is out. I also have had a few anxiety attacks over the past few days about his arrival. I've shed some tears and done some freaking out about the change that is to come and not knowing what the heck to do with a baby. Luckily, these panics don't last too long, but still, I'd prefer they'd go away. I like being excited about his coming...not scared. Hopefully it's just my crazy hormones.
At Friday's check-up I was 2cm dilated and 75% effaced. Not bad progress. More to come at next Wednesday's appt. I'll keep you all posted.
Friday, May 23, 2008
1 - Husband has time off work and wouldn't have to use too many vaca days post-birth. Also, this is a great time for my sister who lives 3 hours away to get up here for the festivities as well.
2 - As of yet, I have somehow managed to steer clear of any stretch marks. I know that this luck continuing to 40/41 weeks is a statistical impossibility. And I really don't want them!
3 - I am creeping oh so close to having gained 50....yes that's right 5-0....pounds with this little guy. I have at this point made my peace with this. But....should this pregnancy progress a few more weeks, I fear that the scale will creep over that 50 mark and i am so NOT ok with that prospect.
4 - Our pool opens on Saturday, and on the agenda is going to the pool. It sure would be nice to avoid having to suit up. I don't think whaling is allowed at my pool and it is possible someone could mistake me for one and try to harpoon me.
5 - The fat band I've been wearing on my ring finger since February is starting to get way too tight. I think it may need to come off because of all the water retention and swelling. I really hate the thought of not wearing a ring. So, Grayson, please come out so I can keep it on.
6 - So far we have avoided insane heat this May here in NOrthern Virginia. This is quite unusual...normally we have a few 90 degree days thrown in by now. So nice to have avoided the heat thus far in my huge state...but I bet by next week the temps start to rise and I will have to start to suffer even more swelling and canklage in the heat.
7 - Work is 100% handed off. I'm still doing all my duties til I go into labor. But...all is fully covered for when I'm gone. So I'm totally ready on the work front.
So c'mon buddy....be a good little boy, listen to your mom. Come out and play with us this weekend. Even tonight. Pretty please?
Monday, May 19, 2008
"3 more weeks?! You look like you're gonna pop now. Sure they don't have your due date wrong"
"Are they sure there aren't twins in there? Your stomach is so big it could be holding twins"
"I bet you have a 10 pounder in there"
And my personal favorite....
"I've never seen a pregnant woman as huge as you." (yes...this one is a direct quote)
Seriously? I am NOT that big. I realize I have gained more weight than I should have, and that yes, I am big...but I am by no means the largest pregnant woman I've ever seen. Not even close.
Do people think these comments are cute? Oh please oh please let me go into labor before another Sunday comes.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Also, an update from my world of fluid retention. It is official...I have cankles. My feet and ankles are so swollen that I now no longer have ankles. It's hideous. In the past my legs have been the only part of my body that I was pretty ok with. But gone are those days. Who knew I'd miss my ankles?
Lastly...this is the "no she didn't!" portion of the post. Today I, along with some others, was given a "praise" from an acquaintance. Some of us were sharing prayer requests, and when it was this persons turn she mentioned that she had a praise...an answer to prayer. You see...last week she found out she was unexpectedly pregnant and wasn't so happy about it. So she goes on to say she began bleeding a few days later and was so thankful for the miscarriage because she just so didn't want to be pregnant right now. Um...hello!! Woman who's had 3 miscarriages she mourns deeply standing right next to you! I didn't even know how to react to that one. It blew me away and I just had to change the subject to keep myself from saying something I'd regret. Seriously...who says that?! I mean...even if you think it - wouldn't your filter keep you from saying it?
Saturday, May 10, 2008
That's all the hooha news for now. More to come in a week. :-)
Thursday, May 1, 2008
My chiropractor friend Dr. M. tells me that this may help prevent my feet from spreading permanently. When pregnant feet relax, the ligaments spread. If I keep them constricted a bit, it should prevent this from happening.
I LOVE shoes. I love MY shoes. I have a lot of them and have invested significant time and money in them. The thought of not squeezing back into them after this pregnancy makes me want to cry. Superficial? Totally. But I have some great shoes. Irreplaceable shoes. They make me happy. Shoe departments are my happy place.
For now, I am content in my flip flops as the heat has me swollen and unable to wear anything else. But...if these ace bandages can help me squeeze back in my heels in the future, I will be crazy grateful for the advice.
Anyone else ever heard of this and if it works?
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Friday, April 25, 2008
So that's all the hoo-ha news for now. More to come in 2 weeks when I get checked again.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
I have finally found frames that I feel are worthy of the pics. These are my angel pics new permanent homes:
Angel # 1 - Lost to heaven March 2006 - Frame says it perfectly - "Angel in the Making"
Angel #3 - Lost to heaven April 2007 - Frame says "So little...so loved" Perfectly stated for this little guy, since he measured behind from the beginning.
My husband always jokingly says our 2nd angel must have middle child syndrome since we don't have any pics around of him. But, unfortunately that's just because he was lost too early to get a glimpse at him. But he is just as loved.
Wanted to share my worthy finds in case any of you other ladies are looking for options for your pics. I found these frames at babies r' us.
Friday, April 11, 2008
In my dream I was due in a few weeks, when all the sudden my left nipple fell off. Yep...you read that right. It just fell right off. Needless to say in my dream I was very stressed out about how I was going to breastfeed without a nipple. And I was very worried about my appearance - if I was only breastfeeding out of one boob, I sure was going to lopsided for many months.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
It's a boy centerpieces - so cute!
My 2 BFF's made the trip from NY for the weekend - I love them!
My sisters, my niece and the BFF's again
all the loot
She thinks it's ALL for her
Ugh...the Belly Shot - Here I am 30 1/2 weeks - maybe the horizontal stripes weren't the way to go :)
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
I am so thankful for all the great stuff and a little overwhelmed by generosity. Also overwhelmed with the feeling of being done with all the preparations and having not much else to do but wait for the little guy to cook a little more so he can come out. This is a wierd and strange place to be. A great place....but an odd feeling for sure. The nesting is complete and now it's time for him to come. 2 months to go...we're in the home stretch.
Wow...this is really going to happen.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
And...sadly, last Saturday we said farewell to our 2 door convertible and said hello to a practical SUV. Oh the things I'm giving up for you Mr. Grayson!
Monday, March 10, 2008
So who did I call to come help me out today? My mommy. Seriously...are we ever too old to be babied a bit by them? She stopped by to let the dog out, stock me up with some fluids in a little mini fridge, bring me applesauce and get me set up with the computer in bed and a book. God bless moms. Especially mine who is so completely amazing in every way. I know people say this about their moms, but it is seriously true about mine. I think I lucked out with the best one. Wow...look at me all sentimental on my sick bed.
As my mom took care of me, I began reflecting on little Gray and what type of mom I'm gonna be to him. My mom has always been so selfless with us. Even today, coming over her and chancing gettting sick herself. She also today got thrown up on by my nephew who has the same bug and instead of dodging the puke, just let him do it in her lap. Wow...what a mom thing to do. Now, I still have a hard time imagining myself willingly being puked on, but I do find myself starting to put Gray's needs before mine. In an effort to keep fluids in for him today, I have overcome the puke that was sure to come a few times. Yes...it would offer me sweet relief....but the little guy needs something since I can't give him much at all today. I guess some of that unconditional loving and selfless stuff is starting to kick in. I know I still have a long way to go to be as awesome as my mom. But...I'm happy to see some maternal instinct starting to set in.
One last complaint before I sign off, try to down some saltines so I can take some more tylenol and pass out with the hopes of waking up all shiny and new and feeling good. You know when you normally get the stomach flu and you're puking or on the toilet and lay in bed all day feeling like you want to die? Well....in normal life, there is at least one bright spot to it. The fact that tomorrow you are going to be so darn skinny from the "diet" you never intended to go on. It is the one positive thing that one can look forward to from the stomach flu. But nope...not me. I don't even get that. Yes...I am that superficial sometimes. Can't help it.
Off to bed. Hoping for good things in the a.m.!
Sunday, March 9, 2008
It is all starting to get a bit overwhelming. Not that I'm complaining....I'm so thankful for still being in this game. But there is so much to do, so much to plan for, so many changes ahead of us.
Grayson's nursery is near completion. His crib and changing table are up. The walls are painted. The closet is cleared and prepped. Rocking chair is in place. Curtains are up. So wierd!!
The gifts from registry lists have begun to arrive. On Friday we received our car seat and stroller combo. Boy does that make things so real. On the agenda today - seeing if there is any way in he!! that the car seat will fit in our 2 door convertible. I'm doubtful and have already made a trip to the dealership to talk trade ins...and head back there tomorrow to discuss that more. But we'll see. I hate to say goodbye to my pride and joy over the past almost year. We bought that car on a whim after our 3rd miscarriage last April. It was a silly, expensive, impulse purchase, but the point of it was to put a smile on my face every time I got in it. And you know what..it still does to this day. I hate to get rid of it, but know that soon I'll have a little bundle to put a smile on my face every day instead.
Other things I have been saying goodbye to as of late:
My wedding rings. They were just way to tight and I had to let them go and upgrade (or downgrade depending on how you look at it) to a "fat band" as I refer to it. It's just a simple silver band...and of course it came in a blue box as all things silver should....but I still miss my other rings that have so much meaning.
My bikini line. Yep. I can't see it at all anymore. I know it still exists, but it's sure not in my view. This makes for an interesting go of it for keeping things well trimmed down there. I feel like a blind person just aimlessly playing with a razor. Funny the things you miss that you just never imagined you would.
Sleep. Oh sweet sleep, where did you go? Now I must admit, I've never been the best sleeper in the world anyway, but it's reached whole other levels these days. I'm lucky to get in 4 hours of it. I just can't get comfortable for longer than a little bit. I have the preggo pillow, I do the side thing, I even am still somehow managing to sleep on my stomach some too, but it's all in vain. Sleep evades me constantly. One thing I do know is that I am SO ready for the middle of the night feedings - I'm up anyway!
I leave you with a belly pic. This is actually the 1st belly pic that was taken of me my whole pregnancy. I resisted it until 22 1/2 weeks. I just was so afraid to chronicle things in this way...afraid to jinx things. This is now 4 weeks out of date, and yes, I am definitely bigger since then as the scale creeps so close to 30 lbs gained already. UGH! But...I thought I'd share the first pic of Debby and Grayson together.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
I'm almost 25 weeks along and only have a little over 3 months to go til due date. It's getting so real. Grayson is kicking up a storm and we've advanced from just me feeling him, to others being able to feel him, to others now being able to see his little kicks through my ever growing belly. His dresser/changing table is here and his crib will arrive this week. I really am still half in shock that this is all really happening. It's quite surreal.
Quite a boring post here...but just needed to get one out there to say I'm back and more is to come. Promise to post again soon....
Friday, February 1, 2008
My doc asked if we found out what we were having and I told him it's a boy. To which he replied the normal "oh that's great" yada, yada, yada and then followed that with "Will you be circumcising him?".
Wow...wasn't expecting that one yet. Nor had I really thought about it much I guess. I told him "yes", he wrote it down on my chart, and we moved on. Now, this question disturbs me, not so much because I was unprepared for it, but because I hate that it has to be asked at all. I've been reading that only 50% of boys these days are circumcised...and this just grosses me out. Now I know that there's all kinds of research out there that it's not necessary any more and that people think it's cruel, and that it should be the boy's choice when he's older - blah, blah, blah.
In those seconds between the doc asking me the question and my response, all I could think of were the girls in the future who would be checking out my son's member. (Yes....it would be lovely if it was just one girl...not plural, but seriously, who are we kidding here?) And I just can't bring myself to put those poor girls through that something extra that they don't need to see.
Let's be honest, the male anatomy is not so attractive in the first place. Why keep something extra on there that'll just serve to make something not so hot even MORE unattractive? Yes, future girlfriends of Grayson, you can thank me now, you can thank me later. My son will have a nice, trimmed and easily cleaned willy down there. And you are very welcome.
Monday, January 28, 2008
As I type this I am in Phoenix, Arizona with my husband on a work conference. I must say the 60 degree weather here is a refreshing change from the cold at home. And, in the next few weeks I will travel to Dallas and to Florida 2 different times. I guess I'm just trying to squeeze in as much as I can before my travel cut-off.
Yes....dreaded blood was back this past Saturday. I was out to dinner with husband and co-workers, went to pee, wiped and there it was. BRIGHT red. I freaked out in the stall...and then of course had to do some investigating with some toilet paper and my finger to see if anything else was up there. (Yes...I know, this is way too much information). There was not a lick of anything else, but alas, the worrying began. The dinner couldn't end soon enough so I could get back to the hotel and listen to Grayson on the doppler. He sounded perfect as always, and know more red since then thankfully, but I had a 24 hour period of quite the worrying and googling.
Treadmills and nephews do not mix....
In an effort to slow down my rapid weight gain (Oh yes girls, I have now gained 20 pounds - I am a huge moose) I like to walk. It's too cold at home, so I like to use the treadmill at my parents house. One evening last week I started on my walk, and my nephew vinny decided to come in the room and watch me. He's 20 months old and my mom was watching him for the evening. Vinny decided it would be fun to get on the treadmill with me and before I could stop him, or the machine, there he was sliding through my feet and into the wall behind. And, there I was falling on top of him, unable to get up as the machine skidded on. After what seemed an eternity, but was probably only 15 seconds, mom came to rescue and turned it off and helped us both up. Vinny was totally fine...just scared to death. Me, I was freaked. We've all see the Grey's Anatomy episode where the pregnant girl falls in the shower and loses her baby. That's all I could think of. I had a bummer of a bruise forming on my lower back, and quite the burn on my knee. I called the on-call doc and they asked me all kinds of questions like if i was having cramping or bleeding (no) and if I was still feeling him moving (yes). So they told me to relax, get rest and come in the next morning. So I was treated to a quick u/s on Wednesday morning to make sure everything was all good with the little man. And thankfully, it was. Husband says I should avoid all treadmills and excercise and just become big. Not likely. I think I"ll just avoid them when little rugrats are around.
That's the updates for now...more to come I'm sure!
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Just back from Florida where I have been since Tuesday evening. After getting our fun news on Tuesday morning, the husband and I flew down to Florida to mourn the loss of my grandpa. He has had a 5 year battle with cancer and lost to it last Sunday morning. We've all been prepared for this for some time as he had many close calls. But then he always seemed to miraculously pull through and have some more time with us all. He has always been one cool old dude and I will miss him. He missed hearing that we're having a boy by just a few short days. But, I love knowing that even though he doens't get to meet little Grayson anytime soon, he gets to hold my other 3 babies long before I do. Before his passing I told him to check in on them. I don't really know if that's how heaven works, but I like to think it does. He always gave the best shoulder rides when I was a little girl and I picture him up there right now giving those three the same experience I used to have. So for now little angels, have fun with grandpa. Our loss is certainly your great gain.
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
But then, the tech moved down a bit, and it was quite obvious that...
Lefty is a boy! This is the bum shot from underneath, and as you can see the little guy has definite male anatomy parts.
So I now introduce to you Grayson David W - expected to join us on June 10, 2008. His nickname will most likely be "Gray", thus the blog title. (Thanks Matt for the help on that one.
I'm so happy to have this appointment behind us and to start calling our baby a real name. Now Grayson, we have much to do before you get here so keep on cooking and we'll see you in June!
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Another thing that continues to move is my weight. And might I say that the number on the scale is moving on up. Rapidly. Much faster than I'd prefer. I hadn't weighed in a few weeks, so today I decided it best to get on scale before an appt. with my OB. I have now passed a scary number for me on the scale (150) and have gained just shy of 15 pounds. AHHHHH! How did this happen? Except for the occassional fast food splurge, I'm really not eating so bad or so much. I was braced for the doc to tell me today to slow it up, but she just told me I looked great and everything sounded great and sent me on my way. Phew! I was hoping to gain no more than 30 lbs. with the pregnancy, but that's looking like less and less of a reality since I'm halfway to that number already and not yet halfway through the pregnancy. Oh well. I guess I need to just do I what I know is best for my body and let it do it's thing without sweating it too much.