Saturday, June 19, 2010

Things I'm Appreciating These Days

I'm a lists kind of girl. I love making them, and then checking things off of them. This list is a sad one though. It's the list of the things I'm trying to appreciate now, because soon they will slip through my fingers as S arrives. Not that I'm sad about our new addition, I'm so excited. But I do feel a sense of loss for the alone time that me and G have. And I realize many of these things I can still do....they will just be different, because it won't just be me and him. I guess I'm getting a bit emotional here towards the end of this pregnancy.

So here's the list of things I'm appreciating these days. Things that will soon be crossed off, in a bittersweet way.
  • Morning bonding with G over breakfast - our special time each day just the two of us
  • Playing with G in the pool on our deck and dedicating my sole attention to him
  • Me and G popping in and out of Starbucks with ease - how will i hold G's hand, carry a baby carrier and my drink order back to the car? hmmmmmm
  • Putting G to bed and spending unlimited time rocking him and whispering to each other before "night night"
There are a billion other moments throughout the day I feel myself trying to capture and remember, but I won't bore you with the whole list.

All I know is all the people I talk to with multiple kids, tell me they don't even remember what it was like to just have 1. I don't want that to be me. I want to have sweet memories of my time with just G and never forget how special it was.


lifestwistsandturns said...

I know just how u feel I'm due in august with baby number 3.we tried for both our girls and even though we tried for them it was still bittersweet once my time had to be shared. Now were expecting baby number 3 it's even more on my mind now that I'm getting closer to his due date.

Katie said...

Oh, this list made me tear up, Debby. I was just thinking this morning, as Will and I were snuggling in bed, where will Emma fit?

Everyone tells me that it "just works," and I know it will, but I am also very wistful as these final weeks wind down.

HereWeGoAJen said...

I really like lists too and this is a really good one.

jill said...

You'll have so many wonderful memories, though! I always try to take turns one of the kids with me on little evening errands when Eric can be home with the other 2, as well - makes you remember what you love about their little individual personalities! Oh and for Starbucks - just make sure you have a double stroller you LOVE :)

tracey said...

I loved my time with 'just Ceilidh' & struggled with how Sarah would fit. I remember just 'me & her' time & I loved it. But Roy actually struggled with how Sarah would fit in our hearts & home more than me. Obviously, it worked out. : )